I HATE NEEDING ANYTHING.
Ever since I was a little kid, I’ve been rewarded for not needing any extra attention. I’ve been an ideal student, a well-behaved daughter, and a consistent friend. Somewhere along the way, I learned that not depending on anybody for anything was easier and helped me stay in control.
I knew how scared I would get when people got angry, so I never let myself get angry. That way no one would need to tell me that it hurt people.
I refused to sit on the carpet with my fellow kindergartners, because I didn’t want anyone to think I needed to be taught anything.
I learned to never need help. Or at least, never to admit it.